Where do I fit in?

In a blink (61/90) (by RGP)

I've spent most of my life thinking I was pretty normal.  I mean, I'm different in a lot of ways from the masses (particularly the female kind), but for the most part I figured I fit in.  Sure,  a few things make me "special" but I never thought it was enough to make me..."different".

The other night an episode of "House" got me thinking.  You probably saw it, but FYI the sick patient was a blogger.  A personal blogger who shared every iota of her life with her readers. 

A point she brought up, which is obvious but might not get you thinking until someone says it out loud, is how the internet is this amazing place where people can finally find other people just like them and be honest about themselves.  I know, duh.  But it really got me thinking, "Where are my people?"
For awhile now I've been hiding my truly personal side because I'm not easy to understand and I haven't found a lot of people that relate to me. I don't really fit in any classic molds.  There's a lot of me.  Some of you would call me a textbook Gemini (which I totally am by the way).  I can get a long with a whole slew of people because of my wide variety of interests and piss off a whole bunch more.

Here's the thing...

I'm not a mommy blogger and never intend on being one (by choice).  I don't know jack about fashion (but I love to look at it).  I'm not easily offended (my skin grows thicker every day).  I'm not particularly religious (though I once was and still respect people's beliefs).  I have a ridiculous sense of humor (I laugh at things most people don't even notice). My apartment is not photo worthy (who has time for dusting anyway?) and I don't know any recipes (I can make a mean ramen).

The list continues.

Maybe I just don't know where to look, but I have a very very hard time finding other women like me that are over the age of 30 or aren't confused by me and some of my choices.

I always intended for this blog to be personal. To be about what I love: about art, about my art, about my life, about your life, about how life is art and art is life.  Somewhere along the line I started trying to please people other than myself.

Now how in the world am I going to be interesting if I'm trying to cater to and/or try not piss people off?  Somehow I got it all backwards. In real life I have no problem speaking my mind, but here on the internet I have somehow become...reserved.

Even just typing that word out in reference to me makes me crack up. Most people who know me in person would respond "And I'm a monkeys uncle."  Or perhaps something a little more updated.

It's not that I've been lying to you, it's that I've held back.  It's time to put an end to that.  How can I expect you to get to know me if I'm not telling you? I want to be more honest. Starting now.

When you read a piece here, or discover a new artist, etc,  I want you to know I'm passionate about what I'm doing.  I love the arts, I love to blog, I love to photograph, I love to share and I want to get to know you.  I'm not saying this is turning into a diary about my daily goings on, I just want you to hear my voice, whether you like it or not.

It's time to create my own mold I guess.
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